Friday, February 28, 2014

Update: 2.28.14

It has to be at least a year since I've blogged anything on this. Or more. Probably more. And, of course, a lot has happened in the past year, because things tend to do that. Happen, I mean. Things tend to happen. Along with being admitted into psychiatric wards at least ten times since I've posted, I also now have a formal diagnosis of schizophrenia. Nobody had any idea that was coming. It wasn't "we usually just wait longer to diagnose" or anything. I saw a specialist in the field and she was surprised that nobody had ever brought it up before. Me, I was surprised that she brought it up.

Anyway, I have to dart, but this blog will contain things about that, as well as other random brain-shits in the postings. I also thing I'll revisit the 30 day GQ challenge. There's no time like the present!

Sunday, September 30, 2012

30 Day Genderqueer Challenge

Since I identify as GQ/trans, I'll be doing the 30 day GQ challenge in October. Here's the days:

1) Do you use any other terms to define or explain your gender?
2) How did you grow up with your gender?
3) What’s your favorite ways of upsetting gender roles / genderbending / genderfucking?
4) Name some queer heroes, influences, or crushes
5) Dysphoria and how you manage it
6) When did you realize you were Genderqueer?
7) What are your favorite physical features of yourself?
8) An unpopular or unsure opinion about the GSM community
9) What have you done or plan to do to socially transition? Pronouns, name, coming out, etc.
10) Are you taking any steps to physically transition?
11) Your first experience with a GSM organization or event
12) Discuss your relationship with the term transgender
13) How has your family taken it or how might they take it?
14) Are you part of the Gender and Sexuality Minority community?
15) How do you deal with gendered things? Clothes shopping, bathrooms, forms, etc.
16) Name some media you connect with queerly
17) How do you, or would you, deal with being misgendered?
18) How does your gender factor in to your future plans?
19) What terms in the cisgender, GSM, or trans* community are problematic?
20) Have you faced any problems or gone through any changes regarding religion?
21) How has your relationship with yourself been affected since you realized you were Genderqueer?
22) What is your sexual and romantic orientations? Are they affected by your gender?
23) Do you feel comfortable answering questions about your gender to friends? Acquaintances? Strangers?
24) How has your relationship with the cisgender people in your life changed?
25) Your first queer crush or relationship
26) Discuss how your clothes do or don’t reflect your gender
27) Write a poem about being Genderqueer. (if you struggle, try a haiku, acrostic poem with your name, or just a stream of conciousness paragraph)
28) Who are some people in your life, on or offline, who make your life better? Your relationship doesn’t have to be related to queerness.
29) Some positive Genderqueer experiences
30) What does Genderqueer mean to you?

Updates: 9.30.12

I got admitted to the psych ward 3 times this summer! Yay! I missed the first month of school, too. Fun stuff. Not I have a lot of work to do for that, not to mention all the other time wasting activities I normally partake in.

Now, for updates!

Yesterday was the pride parade in my area. It was amazing. I wore the trans flag t-shirt that I made the day before with spray paint. But for t shirts. It rained like shit during the parade, but we kept going! It was a lot of fun, plus I got a pair of rainbow tights and lots of rings. And since I like being all creative-like, all my rings now have special meanings.

Next order of business: HvZ. Humans versus Zombies on UNC campus. It's the BEST. I got zombie'd more than halfway through, and it was so fun being a zombie. Way more chill than being a human, too, though both are fun. Zombie= chill fun. Human= stress fun.
This is us getting mission details at the belltower.

This is a guy from my squad being silly, conquering a fountain that we drank out of . It was the kind of fountain you're not supposed to drink from. We're rebels.

That's about it for updates, now, and posts should be more regular. I'll have some stuff about bracelets up soon, because I just learned how to make survival bracelets, and just finished a lot of others! This is a rainbow one I got at the pride parade:

100 Themes Challenge

I'm doing the 100 Themes Challenge, and these are my 100 themes! I'll do another update when I get to 60 or 70ish.

1. Introduction [link]
2. Love [link]
3. Light [link]
4. Dark [link]
5. Seeking Solace [link]
6. Break Away [link]
7. Heaven [link]
8. Innocence [link]
9. Drive [link]
10. Breathe Again [link]
11. Memory [link]
12. Insanity [link]
13. Misfortune [link]
14. Smile [link]
15. Silence [link]
16. Questioning [link]
17. Blood [link]
18. Rainbow [link]
19. Gray [link]
20. Fortitude [link]
21. Vacation [link]
22. Mother Nature [link]
23. Cat [link]
24. No Time [link]
25. Trouble Lurking [link]
26. Tears [link]
27. Foreign [link]
28. Sorrow [link]
29. Happiness [link]
30. Under the Rain [link]
31. Flowers [link]
32. Night [link]
33. Expectations [link]
34. Stars [link]
35. Hold My Hand 
36. Precious Treasure [link]
37. Eyes [link]
38. Abandoned [link]
39. Dreams [link]
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still [link]
43. Dying [link]
44. Two Roads [link]
45. Illusion [link]
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood 
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules [link]
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought [link]
53. Keeping a Secret [link]
54. Tower 
55. Waiting [link]
56. Danger Ahead [link]
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head [link]
59. No Way Out 
60. Rejection [link]
61. Fairy Tale 
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb [link]
64. Multitasking
65. Horror 
66. Traps [link]
67. Playing the Melody [link]
68. Hero [link]
69. Annoyance [link]
70. 50%
71. Obsession [link]
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't 
74. Are You Challenging Me? [link]
75. Mirror 
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold 
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning 
92. All That I Have [link]
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope 
96. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Updates: 8.7.12

While the rest of the world was enjoying their summer and break from school, I'm sitting in the psychiatric ward of a hospital. How I got there is not important, what I did there was not important, but I stayed there for twelve days (that's nearly two weeks, people), and didn't breathe the outside air once. And man, it sucked. Never going back there again. An 18 hour bus ride with 40 teenagers and teenage boys pissing in cups the whole way is better. Yeah, I've been there.

Now that I'm out, though, it's all back to normal, and it's time for updates. Yay!

I got three new piercings, two in my cartilage and one in my left lobe. They... really didn't hurt. But DAMN, I have to keep them in for three months! Don't you people know that I have to play soccer a billion times a week? No earrings in soccer. Oh well, I'll just put bandaids over them, hair is the master of camouflage.

Speaking of camouflage, I'm going backpacking next week! It's a seven day trip that I did last year also, and it's going to be a ton of fun. There will be five of us going this year, I think, and I'll be the only girl, which is fine by me. It'd one of the best times of my year, second only maybe to Animazement.

And speaking of cons, OHMYGODIMIGHTGOTOANIWAVE. It's two and a half hours away, but my friend Elisabeth from rock band (no, not the video game) camp may be going, and she said I could ride with her. I can't wait till I get my driver's license. I also might be going to Ichibancon, which is nearly three hours away, in January. We only have to figure out how to get there, and if we wanna stay in a hotel with a ton of roomies or sleep in a car. We're broke.

That brings us to the topic of cosplay. I've got a long list that I want to do, including Sai (Hikaru no Go), Turniphead (Howl's Moving Castle), Humanoid Rainbow Dash (MLP: Friendship is Magic), Maria Ushiromiya (Umineko), young Deidara (Naruto), Sexy no Juutsu Zetsu (Naruto), and Raven (Teen Titans). 

Young Deidara


The ones I really want to do are Sai and young Deidara, and I think I might do young Deidara first, because it's just easier, although neither of them are especially difficult as it seems. Deidara would be a great back up cosplay, too. Nice and comfy. And, all I'd need for Deidara would be green fabric in two shades and the headband. And I'd maybe make one of his clay bombs, particularly this one:

Anyway, I believe that's all for updates, so... Over and out!

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler II

I read the manga of Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler, all the way up to Chapter 70, and I was creepily obsessing over when the next chapter would be coming. Veeery obsessing. I'm usually wary of watching the anime counterparts if I've read the manga parts, but I was in such withdrawal that I did not care. So I decided to watch the anime of Black Butler. And since I've seen so much of Alois in cosplays, I decided to watch season two. And it was like... EVERYBODY WANTS CIEL. ALL THE WAY.

Alois: "Claude, make Ciel mine."
Sebastian: "Om nom nom I want to eat your soul."
Claude: "Om nom nom I will steal your soul from Sebastian."

Now, if you'll forgive my butchering on the actual quotes, you would, no doubt, agree that all of season two was based off of everybody "wanting" Ciel. Wanting Ciel. That just makes you think they all want to have sex with him... which was most likely the writers' intentions. But of course, there is the facade of soul eating and wanting to kill Ciel, but that just makes the whole thing funnier. Way funnier. All in all, I really liked it though. And now Ciel and Sebby will be together forever as demons! <3 UWAUUU.

Ahem. Please excuse the fangirling. Over and out.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Vocaloid: Live

This never ceases to amaze me! They project a digital 3D image (in other words, a hologram) of the Vocaloids on a stage, and they sing and dance, with their live band (of real people). Wow, Japan XD It's pretty awesome though. If you've never seen them live, go check out Hatsune Miku's SPiCa Live.